Together

When he starts talking about living together.
I just wonder:
Do I have to stop using drugs?
Do I have to spend less?
What if I can't party anymore?

Is life without partying possible?
NO FUCKING WAY!

I love my life at the moment.
Nah love might be a big word.
I just don't know how life is without
All the partying.

What if it's empty?

Now I have to chose:
Serious living together?
              Or
Serious party life?

Beauty

What if you and I were never ment to be.
If this love isn't a beautiful story.
What if everything I ever believed in is a lie?

Sometimes I wish this was all a nightmare, but
it isn't. This is my life.
It's disgusting, i'm surrounded by psychopath.
Mabey I am one myself.

It's just not fair, I worked so hard to make myself
a save place to live. Queen of the losers.
Now I get played by my king.
I think he just lost it.

All the fights, it's his fault. This is all his fault!

Bored

I'm at school, in a classroom.
But the teacher doesn't give a damn.

Today I'm mad!
I'm just so done with all the lies.
People tell me things, they say it's confedent.
But it's just confedent, but it's all a lie.
Everything he told me as a friend is a lie!

How can he lie to me like that?

Friends

What if your friend fight all the time.
Backstabbing eatchother and me.
Are they real friends?

Tonight I'm going to a party where I know no one.
Just the B'day boy.
I'm just going to find new friends.
Just soooo done with my "old" ones.

I just need real friends, honest and nice ones.

Broken

Words with a B:
Blair
Building B
Bananas
Broken

It's 8.10 in the morning.
Today I feel like lying in bed, but I'm at school.
I really need to stay awake!
Almost fell asleep in the bus.

I'm that skinny, pale girl with the orange hair.
Halleluhja!

Driven

"You don't need that mutch food"
Do you hear that, that is the voise in my head.
It's the disase no one knows about.

"Your not that skinny"
"Lunch is for failers"
"You won't pass out, because you don't eat"
"Food is disgusting"
"Eating is a waist of time"

When I think about it, I haven't had lunch in like
8 weeks or mabey more.
Mabey I am sick, mabey I'm just crazy.

I'm beautiful in my way, cause god makes no mistakes.
I'm on the right track baby, I was born this way!

Price

If this is what I want, is that worth the price.
I'm doing such a good job. I feel like a leader. 
Not to forget that I'm a born leader. Of failers!


And I feel like, I will do everything so nobody will 
ever forget me. But what if that's the thing that is
going to bring me down. 


Some days I'm so happy, I feel like I could do 
everything. Like everything like screaming without
being noticed. But after that, I feel like dying. 
Lie down on the ground, and never get up.


I'm going to see....