Mabey my first impression was wrong.
He's really cute.
Sceared to get hurt.
He takes it easy.
He's just so different.
So cute when he looks at me.
When he says he's crazy about me.
There is just no way, I just have to admit it.
I like him.
Somewhere along the road I just fell in love with him.
We are just both way to sceared to admit it.
Way to sceared to get hurt again.
It doesn't make things easier between us.
But I guess time will make it happen.
I had sex in the back of a limo.
I had sex with her on a party while I was your date.
I'm chuck bass.
One of my favorite conversations from gossip girl.
When one of my friends told me we weren't living
in gossip girl.
I told her she was right.
Now I think she might be wrong.
Look at us, our group.
Sometimes I think I'm insane.
What if I'm a chuck bass.
An egoistic, mean an dammaged person.
What if I destroy everything and everyon around me?
I just want to fix things!
But I can't.
So I'm gonna do where I'm the best at, RUN!
I had sex in the back of a limo.
I had sex with her on a party while I was your date.
I'm chuck bass.
One of my favorite conversations from gossip girl.
When one of my friends told me we weren't living
in gossip girl.
I told her she was right.
Now I think she might be wrong.
Look at us, our group.
Sometimes I think I'm insane.
What if I'm a chuck bass.
An egoistic, mean an dammaged person.
What if I destroy everything and everyon around me?
I just want to fix things!
But I can't.
So I'm gonna do where I'm the best at, RUN!
There is a change I'll go to Africa.
In less tham two months.
My parants are oke with it.
My best friend hates it.
I think I should do this!
It is an oppertunity I can't just pass on.
Helping people by doing what I do best.
Design clothes.
And ofcourse I'm sceared, but I think this
might be a change to challenge myself.
No internet
No normal food
No shower
And lot's of insects
But I'm brave, I can do this.
It's getting insane, just insane!
This is psycological warfare!
I'm in love, and I think he loves me back.
But I'm soooo sceared.
How the hell can I trust?
I don't even trust myself.
How can I trust him.
I'm just tired of explaining.
But I have to tell him.
I wish it wasn't so hard.
Even the person who I trusted the most.
Again, the only thing he does is trying to break me.
It just hurts so bad.
Another bad experince.
How can I keep trust in man again?
It's the first thing in the morning.
You know you shouldn't.
But you want it sooo badly.
It's just so hard to go to school.
Cause you don't want to go to school.
Because school means not getting high.
So in the morning you just start searching
for a time to get high.
It's all about money and time.
Money to buy the drugs, time to buy them.
Time to use them.
And still trying to not screw up life, because of
the using.
It's a dillema every day, a fight.
Will I choose drugs over school today?
Or will I be brave?
It's that feeling in my body
That smile on my face
It's hopeless, just hopeless.
My friends think, yeah she's back.
I told her, and she didn't react that bad.
He just makes me laugh, he saves my days.
He spinns me around, he makes me crazier.
I like myself when I'm with him.
I like him when I'm with him.
I hate hate hate to admid it, bud ah
I hate to say, I told you so!
I HATE to say, I TOLD you so!
