woensdag 28 september 2011


When I think about what he said, I know it's true.
And I realize, I'm not ready to give up.
I love the party life!
I'm young, I wanna live.

I don't wanna stop living for the weekend.
Than there is no reason at all to live!

dinsdag 27 september 2011


He can't fall in love with me.
My friends hate that guy!

But when I talked to him, he was just nice.
He was fun.
Time for a twisted friendship.

Let's just hope this won't turn out like,
It always does.

In the end I'm always the one in pain.

maandag 26 september 2011

The other boy

It's just a thing I do.
I like the game, playing it.
Lying and minipulate a boy for my own fun.

What? Be happy I don't do it to my friends.
You just can't keep a bad girl down!

And I really try to behave, but when a man
Like that comes around. I just want to bring him down!

Dare to discover, dare to be who I want you to be.
This is my game, and you. You will regret it!!

dinsdag 20 september 2011

Love last

Sometimes I just start crying.
Most of the times it's at home.
There is just so mutch negative energy here.


TThings go totally crazy in my head.
I can't be sceared, but I am sceared as hell!

And there is only one person I want to talk to.
And he's broken, my hero is the one who needs
To be saved.

Now I just have headache, terrible headache.
It feels like my brain is going to explode.
So mutch noise , so mutch impressions.
It's just too mutch!

zondag 18 september 2011

Hell inside

It feels like hell, these things.
They can't be an accident.

All I'm is scared, she's messing with my head.
Ofcourse I'm also mad, but I'm pretty scared to
Find out where she's capable off.
If this is only the start

I can't stand him if he's aggressive.
I hate it when he screams that he's gonne kill someone.
It makes me afraid for our future.

But she can't win!
I won't be so easy to break.

AAAAAAAAAH if aggresion was my thing,
I would have slam her in the face.

woensdag 14 september 2011


When he starts talking about living together.
I just wonder:
Do I have to stop using drugs?
Do I have to spend less?
What if I can't party anymore?

Is life without partying possible?

I love my life at the moment.
Nah love might be a big word.
I just don't know how life is without
All the partying.

What if it's empty?

Now I have to chose:
Serious living together?
Serious party life?

maandag 12 september 2011


What if you and I were never ment to be.
If this love isn't a beautiful story.
What if everything I ever believed in is a lie?

Sometimes I wish this was all a nightmare, but
it isn't. This is my life.
It's disgusting, i'm surrounded by psychopath.
Mabey I am one myself.

It's just not fair, I worked so hard to make myself
a save place to live. Queen of the losers.
Now I get played by my king.
I think he just lost it.

All the fights, it's his fault. This is all his fault!


I'm at school, in a classroom.
But the teacher doesn't give a damn.

Today I'm mad!
I'm just so done with all the lies.
People tell me things, they say it's confedent.
But it's just confedent, but it's all a lie.
Everything he told me as a friend is a lie!

How can he lie to me like that?

zaterdag 10 september 2011


What if your friend fight all the time.
Backstabbing eatchother and me.
Are they real friends?

Tonight I'm going to a party where I know no one.
Just the B'day boy.
I'm just going to find new friends.
Just soooo done with my "old" ones.

I just need real friends, honest and nice ones.

donderdag 8 september 2011


Words with a B:
Building B

It's 8.10 in the morning.
Today I feel like lying in bed, but I'm at school.
I really need to stay awake!
Almost fell asleep in the bus.

I'm that skinny, pale girl with the orange hair.


"You don't need that mutch food"
Do you hear that, that is the voise in my head.
It's the disase no one knows about.

"Your not that skinny"
"Lunch is for failers"
"You won't pass out, because you don't eat"
"Food is disgusting"
"Eating is a waist of time"

When I think about it, I haven't had lunch in like
8 weeks or mabey more.
Mabey I am sick, mabey I'm just crazy.

I'm beautiful in my way, cause god makes no mistakes.
I'm on the right track baby, I was born this way!

dinsdag 6 september 2011


If this is what I want, is that worth the price.
I'm doing such a good job. I feel like a leader. 
Not to forget that I'm a born leader. Of failers!

And I feel like, I will do everything so nobody will 
ever forget me. But what if that's the thing that is
going to bring me down. 

Some days I'm so happy, I feel like I could do 
everything. Like everything like screaming without
being noticed. But after that, I feel like dying. 
Lie down on the ground, and never get up.

I'm going to see....