maandag 31 oktober 2011


He still thinks I'm confused.
Your just confuded like last year.
He just doesn't get it!
He thinks we will be alright, we won't.

I wish it felt like before.
When we were still happy together.
Happy like in the good old days.
But that's over now.

School, friends, party and no boys!
I just won't allow myself!
No dates, kissers, flirts or one night stands.
I'm better than that!
It's me time now!

zondag 30 oktober 2011


Last night I had a dream.
And yes it was about you!

What is it with this man?
I can't figure him out. 
And that only makes him more interesting.
He's mysterious and adventure. 
He's fun and admire ring weird.

So why does my dream destroy everything?
Because, this dream was too perfect.
Now I don't wanted to kiss him, because it 
just will suck...
Because it won't be as perfect as in my dream.

I just wanna scream
I don't know where to find it anymore...

zaterdag 29 oktober 2011

Walk away

Call me in the middle of the day,
Just to saaaaaaay baby I love you.


This is not the place I wanted to be.

He said: come back
They say: do your thing
Me said: keep it low profile
I said: go for it girl

I just can't find out whyyyyy?
This place, it isn't fun.
Being single, it's an relieve
Being single means a lot attention
Being single
I'm not gonna change!

donderdag 27 oktober 2011


It's over, we broke up.
I don't know how to feel.
Relieved is the best word to discribe.
I think.

My hole world is going to change.
But I'm not sceared.
Well mabey a little, for myself.

I guess time is gonna tell.

I'm just gonna stay low profile.
I'm miss nobody.
Ofcourse with style and elegance.

woensdag 26 oktober 2011


Being pretty sucks!
When I was still ugly I thought being
pretty would solve all my problems.
It didn't!

Now I'm stuck in a routine of hair and make-up.
Because without them I'm insecure.
It's not that the world has expectations, it's you.
I can't go on the street without it, I just can't.

Pretty things are sometimes not as pretty as
you think you are.
Sometimes there way ugly.

Like me, pretty on the outside, dying on the inside.

dinsdag 25 oktober 2011


Why does it hurts so mutch?
I just can't understand.

I need some advice.
Some really really goood advice.
Cause I can't take this anymore.

I don't mean it anymore when I say:
I love you, I miss you...
It just sucks!

If there's a god, please give me a sign.


If you have sex with someone.
And your not thinking about the person your
having sex with. There is something wrong.

It's broken
I tried I really did.
But I can't fix this anymore.

First I was scared to admit, now I'm scared
what to do now.
The true can free us but also scare us away.

I just don't know.

zaterdag 22 oktober 2011


So were here on a boat.
With my whole family.

Yes this is the worst  day of a shitt week.
Family dinner at the boat.

But one thing is true this can be fun.
This girl tells me that she didn't wanted him.
The guy is despered, she's his badgirl.
This is genius!
This is turning way better out than I expected.

She doesn't want him, omg why am I still
talking to him.
No that's mean, I like him because he's funny.
Because he's cute and nice.
Because he's misterieus, and adventure.

vrijdag 21 oktober 2011


I'm so annoyed!
I don't wanna eat
I don't wanna drink
I don't want to talk
I don't want a fucking hug
I just wanna lay in bed and cry.

Why are all those people so stupid?
They just don't know anything about the world.
And if they know anything they act like theire
stupid so they will fit in.

At moments like this, I HATE LIFE!

Why the fuck wasn't I born in londen or
New york, I would even be happier in Antwerpen.
I wanna shoot the boy's behind me.
They annoy me like hell!

donderdag 20 oktober 2011


About that, don't think I'm the one.

The fackt that I'm still feeling desperate.
It kills me.
Can't we just go on like than.
The good old times between us.

I just miss the good life.
I wanna wake up in londen the city near picadilly.
I want to be the one who sings the song.

Life oh life, fuck me please!

woensdag 19 oktober 2011


It feels like I'm falling.

So today I discoverd my best friend can't have
sex with his girlfriend, because he only fantasise
about me!
What the hell!

This isn't going to get any easier is it?

Tomorrow I'm going to the docter, cause my
shoulder hurts like hell. And I can barely breath.
I'm also tired all the time.
Mabey it's because I weight like 48 kilo.

A friendship between a boy and a girl can never
be pure.

dinsdag 18 oktober 2011


I'm listening silly love songs.
While I'm trying to find a way to deal
with those messed up feelings of mine.

That it hurts, does that means I got feelings for you?
Or am I just hurt becauce I lost you to her?
That's the question.

Life makes no sence at the moment.

zondag 16 oktober 2011


Somewhere between love and hate.
I have to admit that I still think about you.

New years day, 2010.
That's when it all started.
And somewhere that month a year later.
It stoped!

I loved you from the first second.
From the moment our lips touched.
You never loved me, not even for a second.
Not even when we had sex.

I wrote songs you never heard.
I would have done everything for you.
But I didn't mean anything to you.
And that still hurts.

Even if I don't want it to.


If you hit me, hit me hard.

I hate it when I realise, I've been lying
to myself again.
On one way or another you got under
my skin. Making me realize...

Well just to be honest.
I just hate it when things don't go the
way I want them to go.

And I knew it would end up this way.
And the only one who got hurt is me.
And in a way thats fair.
I deserved a smack in my face.

Welcome back to earth, bitch!

zaterdag 15 oktober 2011


I had to lose, now it's really over.

I don't know if I have to be sad?
Or happy that it's over?

Sorry I'm drunk.
But I'm honest, hihi.

I lost, with respect and class.
Now I can say, I'm not in love.

vrijdag 14 oktober 2011


Death doesn't sound like a bad option at the moment.

I'm spinning and it won't stop.
I wanna run, but don't feel like it.
Why does it have to be so hard?

All these stupid man, they are messing up my life.
I'm confused, don't know what to expect.
What the hell do they expect?

That I love them?
That I hate them?
That they are the only one?
What the hell happend to simple life?

What the hell?

woensdag 12 oktober 2011


It's like he doesn't care:
How I smell
If I wear make up
How my hair looks
What kind of clothes I wear
Who I like
What I do
Who I don't like

I'm on the point I might have to question.
Does the guy even like me at all.
I can't get to understand him.
It's annoying! It sucks.
Cause I still wonder...

What the hell does the guy want from me?
What the hell am I expecting from him?

This does sooo not makes life any easier.


Why does it have to be so hard.
Like life wasn't already fucked enough.

He told me he loves me.
And no he is not even the one I expected
it to say it.
He's my best friend.

So he loves me and I fancy the brother of
his girlfriend.
You might understand that this complicated.

How do I need to trust anyone at the moment?
I feel so alone and hunted.
It's like running only makes things worse!

zondag 9 oktober 2011


Right now, I want to die.

Had a fight with my boyfriend.
Eat noting.
Just feeling crap.

And why?
Is it because of the new boy?
Or am I just crappy?
Time will show, and if it won't.
I'm probbebly death.


zaterdag 8 oktober 2011


Sometimes I wish life was easier.
That I could be a broadway star
That I was loved
I wish i wish i wish

Life was easyer without you
But also way less fun
Now I wish you were here
And it worry's me

I don't want to cross the line
I don't wanna fall for you

Wish it was easier!

vrijdag 7 oktober 2011


Being thin is a sin.
So I'm not a saint, I'm a sinner.
And everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner!

donderdag 6 oktober 2011


This aint a fight, this isn't anything!

Why would I give up on something I
get happy from.
The one person who makes me smile
nomatter what.
We're from the non jugemental club.

woensdag 5 oktober 2011


I love trains because:
They have aircondicening
They ride fast
They are way more clean than the bus
They don't stop every 2 minutes
They drive strait

I just like traveling by train!

At this moment I'm going to breda.
My favorite city in shitty holland.
It has like 6 coffeeshops and a lovely
Park where I like to hang out.

I miss the summer!


How the fuck am I going to fix this?
2 boys and only 24 hours in a day!

One is my all sucky boyfriend, the
other just a boy I like to hang out

If this is all wrong, just give me a sign.
Please universe, give me a sign!

Mmm not like I ever cared what anyone
ever thought.
Some say that's a good thing, I think it's missery.

It's not even 8.30 and I'm already annoyed!

dinsdag 4 oktober 2011


Did you ever felt so creative
You would explode if you didn't do something with it?

I feel like crying!
I got so much idea's and I can't do anything with it!
It's so frustrating!

I feel so happy and every day school bores me so
much, I come home feeling like dying!
It's so unfair, it's demotivating me!

maandag 3 oktober 2011


Some may call it stupid
Some may call it an adventure
Some may call it dangerous

I'm not an person you scare easily
Bud if she's involved, I'm out!

She is the most scary, wierd and
Most uncomfortable girl to be around.
If she wants him, she can get him.
I won't fight her in any way.

She always makes me nervous with
Those scary eyebrows.
I swear never ever have seen that
Kind of eyebrows!

So I guess the game is over.
Bye bye boy