My fault

How dare you saying this is my fault?
Like I wanted this?
Nobody wanted it this way, would be wierd it they wanted it.
But she can't just say it's all my fault.
Hello!
I'm the one who's in therapie for more than a year.
Mabey she has to realize she is the problem.
Instead of that she's just blaming me...

And than she get's mad cause I'm upset!
This all aint fair.
Why can't she just admit she's part of the problem.
No, that she is the problem!

I just wanna leave and never go back.
I don't want to live with her in one house anymore.
It's time to finally choose for myself.
I'm not getting any happier from this!

Let it go

The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go!

Nothing to lose, nothing to feel good of.
There are just days I want to die.
That I secretly hope I get hit by a bus.
Some days I just wish it was over.

He doesn't get it.
Ofcourse he doesn't get it.
Am I starting to get wierd again?
Mabey the thing should go out again.
I'm sceared that it won't be good for my relation.
But now I feel like hell!

Mabey I should just talk to him.
Mabey I should!

About talking and other stuff

Talking never was my thing, never will be.
He just doesn't get it.
I wish that he wouldn't push me this hard.
That he would just wait.

There are so much things I want to say.
But the words just won't come out.
The words can't find theire way from my head to my mouth.

And than that drama queen, he is back.
What the hell am I going to do?
Be nice? Or be mean?
He needs to know that I'm charge now!
I can make him loved or hated.

I wish I would feel better.
Cause at this moment, jumping from a building sounds pretty good.
I'm just sad all the time.
Life was too good to stay good, I guess.

Being

Being in a relationship, it stay's complecated.
We're fighting, keep on loving.
I'm just so happy he gets mad when he doesn't agree.
He doesn't agree with me on everything.

Not being a social queen anymore, it gives me the rest I needed so much.
Not having all those dramaqueens around.
My life finally seems to be my life.
I acctualy like my life at the moment.

I have a great boyfriend, mabey not as much friends as I had before but the friends I still have are real ones.

But all that couldn't keep my thoughts from wondering how your doing.
Are you all right?
How your doing after I broke your heard and teared your world apart?

Faces of loves past

It was newyears day when we first met.
The smile on your face I will never forget.
The moment you asked me to dance.
It was the start of a bad romance.

When I think back of who I was.
Who I've been with.
You always pop up in my head.
And I wonder if your alright.

I think about the wonderfull/messedup time we had.
How I thought I wouldn't ever find a boy like you again.
Now I know better.
You were just an asshol.

But there is no way I regret being with you.
Cause to me you were more important than you will ever know.
And that's oke.
I got my life now, you got yours.

We both got our happy ending!

The female body

Just to be clear, as far as I know 90% of the man don't really care if a woman likes the sex.

I will admit that my experiens with sex suck.
The man I've dated were assholls in bed.

But there is a reason why 70% of the woman have a vibrator.
Yes, because man only think about one thing in bed, theire own orgasme.

I see myself as a pretty strong woman because I'm taking good care of myself.
And mabey that's the problem at this moment.